stacey hutapea.

another birthday

2012-01-25T08:24:00.000-08:00

my last year as a teenager. i just have two wishes this year. 1. get into uni 2. hem.....

it's always been you

2012-01-02T09:33:00.000-08:00

"In time, the hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let it go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong, I'd write you another letter. But I never sent them for fear of what I might find. By then, you'd gone on with your life and I didn't want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn't ever want to lose that."

2011-12-24T09:31:00.000-08:00

every girls has that one guy she always has a crush on, and i'm pretty sure, that mine is you :)

unexpected.

2011-11-21T05:25:00.000-08:00

never thought i would fall to you. there's a part of me that wants to let you in but then i feel myself put up this wall and i don't understand why.

trapped

2011-10-08T07:24:00.000-07:00

that's why i can't hate you. you are always there in my bottom situation. can someone please help me to find a way out?

very first month

2011-07-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

and here i am. sitting alone in my apartment listening to random song. missing my hometown, family, and my girls.

so much things to do, so little time.

2011-06-08T08:29:00.000-07:00

my departure to melbourne is in 8 days and i haven't prepared anything yet. Nice.

3 days to Graduation Day. so excited yet sad, i'm so gonna miss Santa Ursula so much. xx.

2011-05-06T10:33:00.000-07:00

super kangen gossip di kelas sambil mikirin ke sweet seventeen sabtu ini pake baju apa ya.

super kangen desek2an di kantin beli nasi timbel mie babi.

super kangen berasa tolol banget pas pelajaran pak hari (itu genangan, bukan banjir)

i do miss highschool :'(

letting go

2011-03-29T05:49:00.000-07:00

yasudahlah. mungkin lebih baik kalau saya tidak ada disana. saya (tetap) sayang kalian.

2011-03-22T01:22:00.000-07:00

halo gw kangen. banget. i miss being around.

kayanya dulu semuanya baik-baik aja. semuanya solid, sampe gw yang cari gara-gara sendiri.

i know i made mistakes and one of you were right, gw nyesel.

gw bingung ini mau sampe kapan dan gimana betulinnya.

gw bertanya-tanya ke semua orang tapi gak ada yang bisa jawab.

gw yakin ada sesuatu. perasaan gw bilang gitu.

gw takut dan gak mau kalo kenyataannya semua udah terlalu berantakan dan gak bisa dibalikin lagi.

i guess im having the "the moment you turn around to find your friends, you realze that this time they are not there anymore and you feel that life never be the same again" syndrom.

:"( it's hurting me inside.

pieces

2011-03-17T04:01:00.000-07:00

" Have any of you lost that one friend, that person who you thought will ALWAYS be there. Who said they would always be there, but, then, they got tired of you, or fed up with you, or just stopped caring about you, and they just left? After promising you they would never leave they break that promise? They accuse their leaving of being your fault. They say it's because you stopped caring. Because you pushed them away farther than they could take. Because you just weren't good enough. Because you just didn't try hard enough. They say that if you cares, that if you didn't push them away, that if you were good enough, that if you tried harder, then they would still be there. But, what I don't understand is why they can't understand that the only reason I push someone away was because I loved them so much, and that they meant so much to me, and that I got scared. I was frightened that they would take that love away. And I was right. They did. Why can't they understand? " - Jacqueline Kelly

sigh

2011-03-10T00:48:00.000-08:00

enek. muak. please dong.

how things change. how people change. the kind of friendship we used to believe in.

opini dan sugesti tidak selalu sama dengan fakta.

no one understands. im struggling alone. seandainya semuanya bisa gw tumpahin.

menghitung waktu

2011-02-23T00:34:00.000-08:00

masih ada 2 kali try out + 2 minggu ujian praktek.

2 bulan kurang 5 hari lagi, ujian nasional.

2 bulan lagi, konser justin bieber (haha gak penting)

3 bulan kurang 6 hari lagi, pengumuman kelulusan.

3 bulan kurang 4 hari lagi, BALI MAY.

4 bulan kurang 12 hari lagi, graduation night

4 bulan lagi, melbourne.

semoga sekitar 3 bulan kurang 6 hari lagi, saya bisa nge post disini bilang saya lulus dengan nilai memuaskan. Pengen bikin Pak Hari Susilo bilang ke saya "selamat ya nilai uan geografinya bagus".

random sih : saya lebih suka make favorite daripada nge rt HAHA apa sih.

Fantasy

2010-08-13T06:52:00.000-07:00

"You've got to accept the fact that life isn't a fairy tale, things aren't always happily ever after. Things like magic wishes, Prince Charmings and true love don't happen in real life. Magic wishes come from money, Prince Charming's a shallow idiot with a bad haircut and overpriced clothes. Welcome to reality. Enjoy your stay."